feeling deprresed

i don't know where to start, or what to say...i'm really feeling down. like there's a 100 tons setting on my chest.

are best friends soposed to betray each other or aren't they sopoused to trust each other compleatly.? do my friends really like me or are they just being curtious? i don't know what to think.??? it feels so damn hard..
i want to break this prison and get out>>> but how? i'm feeling trapped and can't sestain my existins.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA....i want to scream to get what i'm feeling out.....
i wish T-san was here, he's the only one who understands me, and the only one that respect his opinion... (T_T) (T_T)

it's my Birthday!

hay it's my birthday....i'm now 25... would you believe that! 7/7/2007, lucky seven!
my friends throw me a surprise party yesterday. it was an out-door barty. we sat in front of Petra University, my old university..it was a big surprise for me because i never expected it in a million...
i had fun.. i wished that a few friends were with us..but sadlly they weren't with us... maybe next year..
mata ne

hay ya mens..

hi guys, soooooooooooo sorry for the loooooooooooooooooooong delay. things been very busy...
my mom came from saudi arabia, the minute she came she started tearing down the walls of the house.. the house is a mess. its been two weeks now and since the beginning of every thing we've been sleeping between the rable....???
on a different note, i've started my new job on sunday.. its quite different from what i used to do.. the company is good, and the guys i'm working with are very nice... my superviseres are very nice also...
today the social commity in the company held their monthly lunch, to celebrate employees who their birthday was last month, and intorduce the new employees to the rest of the team.. it's kinda felt worm...like family..
i'm very happy...